This is me

Hello, this is Mike.

At least that's the pseudonym I use to talk in English. My name is actually Miguel, my native language is Spanish. I'm creating this blog to put my ideas in order and tell the experience of my adult life to myself and the world. Although I don't think many people may read this, I think it would be useful for someone with the same kind of issues if they come by it. Let's start then.

You can think of me as Mike. At the time I'm writing this, I'm 28 years old and I still feel like a trainwreck of a person. I'm going through a situation which is lifting my self esteem exponentially, but at the same time, I'm suffering from a little bit of imposter syndrome. The reason I feel like a failure is a combination of situations that led to where I'm standing today. I studied five years in college, approving only courses from year one and two, got a job as a programmer, in which I got fired after eleven months. At the same time, I failed three courses in a semester, all of them for the third time which meant I could not take them another time. I dropped out, I did not search for another job as a programmer as I felt like I was not worth the position, plus, no company would pay me what the job was worth. That lead me to work on a call center in which I was making more money than as a programmer, which is ridiculous. I quit that job to continue studying in college, another carreer, with the help of my parents.

This seems like a short story, and it is, but it happened in the span of eight years. Fifteen if you count my time in high school. In this blog, I will describe why each thing happened each time it happened. This is just my way to cope with what happened in my life, why the path I'm following might be the correct one in the end. I will let you know more in my next entry.